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Any time that I am enthused to create, the adversary of self doubt rallies its armies and orders the attack on my newly found inspiration. A battle ensues and my focus no longer goes into the project or idea at hand. Instead all resources are directed and invested in a war against invisible enemies – good old Major Doubt and General Fear.

If you have battled with self doubt, you will know what I mean!

I mention this because the creepy fairy Icon at the top of the page was somehow born during such a war.

Here’s how… First came the idea, I wanted a creepy and mysterious silhouette of a fairy for my blog.  I set some expectations way up in the clouds and began comparing and gathering  inspiration from expensive brand logos and established artists’ works of wonder.

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I began to sketch concepts. Over and over nothing worked, nothing matched up to what I wanted. I had a shaky concept and a whole lot of beautiful and inspiring reference but none of the reference matched exactly what I wanted. So I went back to search for reference that matched my shaky concept to a T. Needless to say, I found no such thing.

This is because I wanted something original.

I had to come to the conclusion that inspiration and reference was there to be drawn on and (here it comes) referred to, not copied.

Still, my concepts seemed to be repeating themselves and Major Doubt and General Fear were winning battle after battle in the war in my mind. I continued to attempt to thwart their advances by churning out more and more almost identical concepts. This didn’t help and I was about ready to concede defeat.

fairy concepts 2While taking a defeatist break, I read through the first chapter of Ann Rand’s book ” The Art of Fiction”.

“If you are not clear at all – if you have nothing but ‘floating abstractions’ in your subconscious (by that I mean abstractions which do not connect to concretes) – you will sit and stare at blank paper. Nothing will come out because you have put nothing into it.”

Ann’s view point helped me, despite my natural aversion to her usually self glorifying air. I removed my self from my work station and reflected. What I was trying to achieve was a creepy fairytale like silhouette of a fairy, more wasp-based than butterfly. At the same time I was attempting to pull off a simple small iconic logo.

Another issue was that I was drawing the concepts at the size I imagined it would be once in use instead of a size where I could see properly what I was doing.

in progress fairy sketchFor my fairy to be born before the armies of doubt marched in and destroyed the remains of my morale,

I abandoned the logo focus, conjured more clearly in my mind what I wanted to see on paper, found precise and relevant reference and drew something in full scale. From there I turned the image into a silhouette and at last, sent the enemy armies into retreat (to wait until the next project inspiration arrived).

 

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Dear Banana Girl, I like your potatoes!

I’ve long wondered at the link between diet and physical aesthetics and emotional well being. It has always been a point of interest and I have always LOVED food. baked wedges in news paperLove of food can be a bane or an asset. A bane in that you can overindulge in it and reap uncomfortable rewards. An asset in that whether you eat an enormous bowl of salad or an enormous bowl of greasy potato wedges both are just delightful and enjoyment ensues.
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So what say, you don’t enjoy salad? But my God, potato wedges make you salivate and you would eat them every day if only the undesirable consequences didn’t stop you!
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Queue this recipe from Freelee (view here ). I can eat these day in and day out without weight gain or feeling weighed down and sluggish. An  absolutely delicious way to love potatoes!

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Retro Girl

Being more of a sketcher kind of artist (one who sketches things and leaves them in that draft like stage) I find joy and wonder at seeing any of my work in a state of completion. pin up illustration 2

A few years ago I did take a pencil work digital for a clients sake. Finding this again (along with a couple of variations) gave me a subtle reminder of the value in the completion of something. pin up illustration 3As I had been hoping to explore some other art mediums this year, these Retro Girls have added digital to the list! pin up illustration 1

Do You Have A “One Day Maybe” List?

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Do you have a to-do list comprised of goals that you intend to achieve… one day?

What does ‘one day’ even mean?

When the time is right? When it all just starts to fall into place?  When it happens of its own accord? That sounds like a pretty shaky foundation…

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I stopped setting goals

Last year I didn’t set myself any goals because I was tired of finding my goal lists untouched and abandoned.  I felt there was no use writing down new ones when the old ones sat dormant and unborn on old pieces of lined paper in my desk drawers.

Instead, I started to take action

I found the lists from the last few years and picked the first goal without an honourary tick at its feet.

The first thing on my One Day Maybe list?

Start a blog. It’s been a year and I can now mark a tick next to that goal. After completing another goal this year (Personal Project For A Friend) I proved  to myself something that all of the inspirational memes and quotes could not.

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I have reinforced in my own mind the formula;

Goal + Action = A result. 

This year I decided its time to set some new goals and I was excited to find some cute goal planning books (pictured) through www.kikki-k.com .

So…what’s going on you’re list this year?